Just letting you know that I've made good on your painting that I promised you. But, you get it for your birthday so you'll have to wait! It's a small painting, like 12 x 16 maybe? But yeah, I like it alot and so you should feel honored that I am willing to part with it and give it to you :)Lynn is applying for grad schools and I offered to look over her essays a few months ago. She has never been the strongest writer, so I actually used to do this for her all the time both in high school and college. I tweaked them, added notes, and sent them back to her. It was no big deal, I was happy to help.
Thanks SO SO SO much for your help! I really appreciate it, and I know you helped me tweak them a lot for the better. I will keep you posted on what happens next.
Hope you had a good weekend.
- L
Last night, as I tucked a bookmark into my Greek mythology book, I looked around my bedroom for a place to put this painting.
There's a blank spot on my wall, right above my television, where a Spirited Away poster once occupied. You can still see the tacs in the wall that held it in place, with pieces of the corners of the poster still stuck underneath.
Most couples find something that's "theirs": a band, a song, a movie, a restaurant, etc. Miyazaki movies, especially this one in particular, was ours. I haven't watched them any of them since and I can be honest with myself when I say that I still don't think I'm quite ready to.
One night, when I staggered home from the bars wasted off my pathetic ass, I ripped down that poster while a dangerous mixture of whiskey, anger and emo-ness brewed in me. I didn't want to be reminded of it or of her and that poster wasn't helping. It was coming down.
But as I sat in bed last night staring at that blank spot on my wall, I thought that this would be a perfect spot for her painting. I'm in a different place now. And it feels good.
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I don't know why, but I found myself holding my breath while I was reading that. Beautifully written.
dude, i found your blog from some recommendations, and i definitely identify with you.
probably even more so because i also live in LA. if you ever need a wingman...
too bad about the poster and it being charged with so many emotions - it's a such a good movie!
emo-ness?
I love it :D I'm stealing it.
you take all my insults, it's only fair :P
when i broke up with my long term bf (back in the days of yore) I actually binned everything he had ever given me, I couldn't bear to have any of it near me. i still hate him so obviously your in a better place than me :)
though he is a total asshole, and lynn seems quite nice.
Spirited Away is such an awesome movie. I would buy it, but somehow, I never want to part with $25 to pay for it.
And I'm glad you're in a better place now. It's hard to get there.
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Such a pretty post. I mean, um... rugged and manly.
Whatever, you know what I mean.
That's got to be a pretty great feeling -- moving on and knowing you're in a better place.
I'm sure you get this all the time, but it kind of reminds me of Swingers -- the last scene in the diner where Trent and Mikey are talking and Mikey just seems so much more at ease and so much happier.
Oh and Greek mythology rocks.
i'm with b2g. a beautifully honest post.
in the most rugged way imagineable of course.
glad you're in a good place
You have a great ease with writing. Am enjoying it.
I'm starting over at 34, after 11 years. It's super fun.
I like Kiki's Delivery Service better than Spirited Away, but either way I'm sorry about the poster. We can all get carried away in our emo-ness. I kind of wish I'd been able to see that.
Miyazaki poster, torn down because you didn't want to be reminded... to be replaced by a painting. Hm.
Let me channel our mutual friend Aesop and write a little story.
A stag was running through the wood pursued by hounds, when a wolf appeared and offered to help him escape. The stag, thinking nothing but of the hounds, accepted, and took refuge in the wolf's den. The wolf then turned upon the stag and devoured him.
Moral: Only fools trade one woe for another.
If you're in a different place now, ok... but careful. You'll have to look at that painting an awful lot.
good for you! Nothing like truly being able to let go and move on! Its a good place to be!
As always, Leo knows best. Listen to him, he's wise beyond his years.
I was reading your buddy Leo's comment here and boy, what a buddy you have. Insightful. You are in a better place, ok, but yeah... definitely be careful with that. Six years is a long time to get over. Maybe you should put the painting someplace a little more inconspicuous. Your choice, of course.
Don't know why I cared to comment twice, so feel special... if you want to.
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That's great that you can L can still be friends and that you are now ready to move on with your life.
i dont know you, but i know your story. i went through it once before, and now once again.
i love your honesty and your blog.
im adding you to my list of favorite links, i hope thats ok :)
Aww that's really sweet of her.
Good to see you really are moving on :)
The fact that Leo just wrote you a fable suggests that you need to enlist him to help with your advice-giving endeavors.
This whole Lynn friendship makes me nervous. Just sayin.
I'm glad you are in a better place now. Incidentally, what's the painting?
Yey!
But... What happens if it's a hideous painting?
awwww....
yea, that's all i got.
doesn't it suck how after relationships end the great things that you loved together are ruined? not ruined forever, but you know. for as long as it takes to get over it.
you are a bigger man than I.
well that actually might be a more obvious statement than i intended.
note to self: never let miyazaki films become that thing...i love them too much.
i'm trying to come up with 'our thing' at the moment...i suppose it's a good sign that is doesn't just pop into my head.
goooosebumps!
I'm glad you look over her essays, she spelled "a lot" as one word. Sorry, I'm a grammar snot.
That said, you are either really, very mature to be so grown up and OK with all of this (because I don't know that I will ever get there with my ex, EVER) or you are silly. I can't decide which.
Perfect entry.
Spirited Away is the shiz. The best.
I like Princess Mononoke (especially since Neil Gaiman likes it) but kinda held back by the fact that she was voiced by Claire Danes (who I hate). Small detail.
Still, Leo is right (as usual). You may think that you are in control right now but sometimes we do not realize we're in the pit until we can't get out anymore.
Be careful. Hearts can be tricky.
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